Wolf's Rain

Getting my Organization 13 cloak in a few days for the local con coming up in two weeks!!!!!



I've looked over my past posts and just recently realized that I've been ranting and raving about all these awesometastic anime and manga series. And most of them ARE amazing, and most that I find are through recommendations, which means that they're worth watching. But there are a few disappointments out there- that's why we have a Worst list to the right. There ARE some bad animes- one of which I'm here to save you from.









At first glance, Wolf's Rain seems like a fun sort of anime. But it is actually a bucketful of hellish depression in disguised as a cutesy action show. It takes place in a post-war world where wolves are extinct and no longer exist. People have killed them because of their violent nature and the belief that they are demonic creatures. But only humans think that wolves are ectinct- in actuality, they are still very much alive, though fewer in number. They disguise themselves as human, so we cannot see their true form. Four wolves meet under unlikely circumstances and spend the series searching for a place the lead character, Kiba, claims is Paradise, where they can be free and happy in their true forms. We follow their journey to find the Flower Maiden, who is the key to Paradise. But they are not the only ones after the Flower Maiden, Cheza. Scientists are searching for her to disover the truth of her magic, as is the Lord Darcia, the lord of the people who created Cheza. The wolves have to fight to keep Chez alive long enough for her to lead them to paradise.

Now. The series begins well, and was even addicting to me for a few episodes. The characters are interesting, I do love the storyline, and the English dub was done as well as the animation. The script is great, and you laugh and want to cry. But then it gets tiring. There is less comedy and a lot of seriousness, not to mention a LOT of cliches and cheese. And not the delicious kind of cheese.
slight spoiler...

Then comes the monotony- simply recounting every bit of angst in this broken, post-war world, and suddenly nothing it cute or funny anymore. And that would be okay- I'm good with angst, and I'm alright with seriousness. In healthy doses. But this was just DEPRESSING. These wolves travel and starve and learn horrible truths, believe they find Paradise and are let down again and again, and there is never even a point to it, because

SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER!!!!!!

they all DIE. That's right. They DIE. Of course, this is a sort of Hitchcock ending which lets you decide what you think- you see the wolves in their human form, traversing New York City as if they have reincarnated- could that have been Paradise? We have no idea. But I would NEVER rewatch this series. It was good, at least in the beginning, and I would love there to be a spinoff series simply because I loved those characters. But there was no point to that series. There doesn't have to be a happy ending- but there has to be a POINT. It has to make SENSE. And Wolf's Rain, unfortunately, did not make the cut.

*Safe to read*

And this, my dear friend, is why Wolf's Rain is, while alright to watch and definitely not the worst of the bunch, is on our Worst list.

So now you know. And now you are protected. WAYOR. Watch At Your Own Risk. I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to try the series, though! It's really not terrible. I won't say I told you so if you end up being disappointed.

Happy Thankgiving

To those of you viewing from America :) Ladies and gentlemen, my absence shalt be explained in four syllables: NaNoWriMo. National November Writing Month had been my challenge for the past twenty five days, and yesterday I finished the challenge five days early, resulting in a strange mixture of self-satisfaction and disappointment. I have to wait for the e-mailed pep talk from my favorite pep-talkers, Holly and Chris, concerning the After-Nano Rush: What Do I Do Now? Well, I already know half the answer to that question. Edit and revise, make new drafts and make better the old ones, until your story has reached a publishable level. Of course, for me it'll take a while to reach that point, and even longer since I have an official (Okay, not-so-official) editor on the job. She has to read through it on her own time and, though I love her feedback, it takes much longer that I myself working on it would. But it's always better to have an outside opinion. As Stephen King has stated: "Writers are often the worst judges of what they have written." So I will wait, and anxiously so.

Meanwhile, I have no idea what I want to do with myself, as the writing is finished and I am left with this itch to write and nothing to fulfill it, neither fill the time. So I will attempt to dive headfirst back into my studies, which have dropped in the past month thanks to NaNo, and, of course, jump right back into the watching of anime and reading of manga, and for good measure, I will write to you about it. Because I could not leave well enough alone.

That being said (In summary, I'm back!), let's get down and dirty with a sexy anime:

Death Note

This is basically the Harry Potter of the anime world: If you haven't seen it or read it, you've heard of it, without a doubt, unless you live in a hole in the ground in the middle of the tundra. In short, there's no freaking way you've never seen or heard of this anime/manga.

Death note is a fantastic story of a boy, ironically called Light, who comes across a notebook called Death Note. He quickly discovers that if any name is written in the notebook, that person will die within minutes. Light, drunk with the power, weaves a fantasty of the ultimate Utopian world, which he plans to create and rule over by basically killing off every bad person on the planet with the Death Note. Soon enough, though, the government notices jail inmates dropping left and right, and they conduct an investigation to find the killer, led by who must be the world's smartest kid- L- because he gets onto Light's track immediately.

Though I'm sure you didn't even need that summary. Then again, until about two weeks ago I would have needed it as well. Though I had the basic gist of the show, I still had no idea what anyone was talking about when they discussed Death Note. It's an intriguing concept, which was why after a year and a half in the anime world, I finally decided to get a taste. And I loved it. Besides Light being extremely hot, the entire idea of the show is mind-blowing, and Light's reaction to the newfound power was sort of refreshing; you don't find many main characters going crazy murdering people. I mean, I know he's still a good guy because he's just trying to make the world a better place, but he's murdering one-time shoplifters, for God's sake. Oh, and I forgot a little detail: A shinigami appears to Light, and follows him around everywhere, being creepy and hilarious as he gives Light information about the Death Note in useful pieces as the show progresses.

I have yet to pick up the manga, but I'm searching for the first volume at my local library. Meanwhile, if you haven't watched Death Note yet, you really should. It's a fantastic show- I know this and I haven't even gotten to the apparent love interest ;) The plot is insane, the characters very real and very likeable, and there are smatterings of humor if you need comedic relief amongst all the dark emo stuff going on. SO WATCH IT. SRSLY. DO EET.

P.S..... Zexion cosplay finally achieved. And yes, I know the picture is blurry, I photoshopped it to look like that. Shut up.

Anime club, memory lane, and Strawberry Panic???

Wazzup, Internet?

So yesterday was the first day of Anime Club, formed at my school but held at the library for our school's lack of screening rooms. I was nervous as fuck walking in, but then I remembered... wait... these are ANIME people... they're going to be NICER than people at school 8D
So I walked in without fear and, low and behold, had an awesome time! The people were friendly, though it was the first meeting so we were all overexcited and refused to shut up (Still, sorry about that, Mr. Vice Prez XD). They had some trouble getting the show up and running, so we watched a couple YouTube videos called "AMV Hell""- fricking hilarious! Severealy perverted, though 0_0
Anyways, once they got it up and running, we watched the first episode an an anime called "Strawberry Panic." I can't judge very well, as I only watched one episode and I had a very biased and judgemental person whispering in my ear the entire time (DEMYX T_T), but I don't think I'll be continuing that anime past the first few episodes. I admit, though, I was turned off of it the moment I heard the word "romance." The series is, as far as I can tell, a Shoujo about an all-girls' school. There is a new student and basically EVERYONE is obsessed with her, like toddlers with the shiny new toy or something. She finally reaches the school and, in her excitement, falls down a HILL 8 down there, she meets the most beautiful girl she's ever seen, who kisses her. Then she passes out and wakes in the hallway, where her roommate meets her and her school year begins.
On the bright side, it seems like it would be a very cute, very FUNNY anime, and pretty much everyone in it is a lesbian so it's not sexually biased or everything. it was actually a refreshing change, to see this as the norm instead of her freaking out because she realizes she's gay and whatnot. ANYWAY. *Ahem*. I was a bit bothered by the fact, though, that the beautiful girl and the new student (Sorry i've been forgetting all their names DX) seem to be in love before they even know each others' names. THAT is why romance bothers me.
Otherwise, it seems like it would be a very good anime to people who aren't bothered by homosexuality or love-at-first-sight-type romance. I think I'll watch one or two episodes to make up my mind and add it to the list if I think it's worth watching.

On a more personal note, yesterday was a very weird day for me. My mom and I were alone that night, the rest of the family out of the house for at least two hours, and normally when that happens we just grab a movie and some snacks. Which is why I thought it was a bit strange that my mom decided to take the dog and I for a two-hour walk instead........??
But it turned out to be one of the best nights I've had in a long time. See, a few days ago I admitted to my mom that I remembered basically NOTHING about my life before we moved into this new house, where we are now. I was about five or six when we left that house, so I WAS young, but you would think I'd remember SOMETHING, right? I guess that bothered her or something, because she drove me down to our old neighborhood and we walked the dog through it, talking about life and everything, and every time we passed something interesting or another house she recognized or I posed a question, she would tell me some sort of tale about it. It was so interesting, and funny a lot of the time, and a bit surreal because of all these pictures that flooded into my head. "This was where your babysitter lived" suddenly brought this vision of laying in bed, watching my sitter Jessica leave the room, and listening for mom's voice to see what she thought of the spaghetti Jaqueline and I had made for her and dad out of paper. I asked my mom and, as it turns out, that is a real memory. She used to play Candy Land with us.
I saw a lot of interesting things and now I have all these memories that feel new but have just been buried; it's a weird feeling. But I had an awesome night- I hope I don't forget it.

The last con....

No, not for me. I'm still going to cons whenever possible- though I think this year I'm skipping ColossalCon, if just because I need to save money for some serious cosplaying here!! (Zexion wig, HERE WE COME!) But someone we all know and love has gone to his last anime convention this past weekend. NDK Denver

That's right. Chris Patton.

Christopher Patton voices a lot of small characters and a few mains, but ALL of them I love! (Except in Narama Daikon Brothers..... but that's just because I couldn't stand the panda >_>) Including Greed in FMA, Asura in Soul Eater, Souske Sagara in Full Metal Panic, Lavi in D.Gray-Man, Hajime in Ghost Stories, Fakir in Princess TuTu, and Tatsuhiro in Welcome to the NHK. And those are just the ones I know by name!
The guy is not only an epic voice actor, but he is an amazing guy. Friendly and always good to his fans- and utterly HILARIOUS XD His last con was NDK in Denver, the one before in Michigan, where I met him for the first and, sadly, the last time. He says he had a blast, he thanked his fans on his Facebook page, and even though he's leaving the anime business I'm going to continue following him. I mean, he's not only a great guy, but he's strong and I like the way he thinks. I like to hear his thoughts and about his life.
So, congrats to the fantastic Mr. Patton for doing everything you wanted to do and now heading off into the sunset. I'll miss you in the anime world- still, I'm following you ;)

Manga: Full Metal Alchemist

Full Metal Alchemist, by Hiromu Arakawa, may just be the greatest manga ever written.

It is a yet to be finished series about two brothers, Edward and Alphonse Elric, who live in a world where alchemy is the science of life. After a terrible alchemic transmutation gone wrong, however, Edward lost his left leg and Alphonse lost his entire body. To keep his brother's soul in this world, he attached it to a body of armor by sacrificing his right arm. Throughout the series they persue the legendary Philosopher's Stone, an element that allows transmutation without equivalent exchange, so that they can get their bodies back. In order to do so, Ed has to become a State Alchemist, using the advantages of working for the government to help in their search for the Stone.

This manga is smart, clever, suspensful, and exciting. There is not ONE character in the series that I dislike- even the bad guys have personalities I can't resist! The action and adventure is broken up by comedic relief that makes me laugh out loud (so much that my family thinks I'm a lil' crazy! ^_^"). The plot is amazing- a storyline I could never come up with in a million years, and artistic skills to match. The amazing thing about this manga is that is doesn't patronize the characters- it's realistic, and it shows the flaws of characters and the world as they are. It's so clever that the simplest of people (*Ahem*... me....) can understand the politics- and somewhat relate them to our own world. The connection between the two is actually acknowleged at some point in the anime.... but I'm not allowed to tell ;)

I think this may just be my favorite manga of all time- it's definitely #1 on my recomendations list, if not just because it has a little something for everyone!
Come on, Miss Arakawa! I'm ready for more!!!!!!!

Soul Eater- Show

Soul Eater is, to say the least, a FANTASTIC series! The manga is by Atsushi Okubo, then the TV series was produced and just recently Funimation has finished the English dub.

The show is a great mixture of comedy, action, mystery, and sci-fi/fantasy type genres. The script is a perfect balance, as well as the characters. (EXCALIBURR..... EXCALIBUUURRRR!!!!) Comic relief is provided for the extreme action, awesome fight scenes, and scary, suspenseful mysteries.

The series is about a world where everybody has a specific Soul, and kids can be sent to the DWMA, a school to train fighters against evil souls. There are Weapons and Meisters, the weapons' wielders. The main characters are Maka Albarn and her scythe Soul Eater, Death the Kid (The Grim Reaper's son) and his twin guns, Liz and Patty, and Black Star and his weapon, Tsubaki. All of the students have totally different personalities and are best friends, striving to be the best, fight the best, and (In Soul's and Maka's case) gain enough souls to turn the weapon into a powerful Death Scythe.

It's a great series in general, the mood, the plot, the characters, the animation. The show follows the manga storyline very well for the first half of the series before veering away from the course. Nothing changes from the Japanese version to the English dub that really bothers me- except one thing.

No, the mouth flaps are great. Thescript isn't changed much at all, and in fact the dub is done very well. It's the voices that bother me. Or, rather, ONE voice.

What's up with Black Star, guise!?! He is voiced by Brittney Karbowski, who is (Obviously) female. The only problem? She makes Black Star sound female! HIS voice sounds like it belongs to a SHE. Black Star has a bit of an ego problem, and he shouts a lot, which doesn't help matters much. The voice is loud and annoying, and it just doesn't sound right after watching the whole series in Japanese, when Black Star has a rather deep and more natural voice for one of the world's strongest assassins. I don't mean to disrespect the voice actress, but I don't think this series was her best work.

That, in all, is the only thing of the whole series, Japanese and English, that bothers me! I've already stated everything else is fantastic- the only thing left to do with it is get EVERYONE to watch! ^_^

Too Into It >_>

I'm sorry. Really, that's all I've gotta say. Kinda. I mean, this blog's not ALWAYS been all about the anime- actually, it almost never was. Not even the manga. Or the games. Or anything I'd been thinking about making this about! It was more of a journal or some crap of the like for me- really, I got too personally into it. Which is why I'm trying to revert it. I'm probably going to add my own little personal notes into everything, but I'm gonna try and revert this blog into what it was supposed to be- a site for anime fans ^_^ It doesn't mean I'm gonna get all professional and shit. Seriously. I'm going to be exactly the same, but I'm going to talk a little less about school and friends and a little more about the latest series.

Which means- TADAAAAAAAAAAA! I need to get INTO more series :3 YAY! MOTIVATION! I can never get myself to do anything without good reason.

Anyway, let's get started I suppose.

I'm getting REALLY into this not-so-new series called D.Gray-Man, by Katsura Hoshino. As a newbie to anime and manga (about one year a week from now, I believe, I met Andrea- AKA Demyx- who introduced me to the whole thing) I haven't exactly gotten around the bend much. Mostly, it's been what was reccommended to me, what I heard was popular, and what I can find myself, which isn't much considering how inexperienced and incapable I am. I'm pretty proud of myself- this is the only GOOD one I've discovered for myself! XD

D.Gray-Man is, essentially, a religious demon type manga. The main character is an 'exorcist', Allen Walker, who became an exorcist (someone who hunts a specific demon called an 'akuma') after he was cursed by.......... SPOILER :3 Can't tell. BUT. Allen is headed to join the Black Order- an organization dedicate to hunt down Akuma and gather cubes of what is called 'Innocence" to save the world. It gets so complicated- I don't think I can explain it all myself! You'll just have to read it, and trust me when I say this: It's a fantastic manga- while there is TONS AND TONS of action, there's also a huge sidedish of comedy! And the author has hinted to some future romance >_>

I'll admit I'm not that far in- volume 8- but I'm already hooked! Hoshino does a fantastic job with the writing and the art of course, the characters are believable and very likeable, but the storyline is incredible. Demons and such have always fascinated me, and this manga takes that subject to an entirely different universe.

There is only one thing that bothers me about this manga, and that's fight scenes. They're awesome, full of action, really well portrayed and all.... but they're confusing. Hoshina skips around, jumping all over the place with weird flashes of I-don't-know-what and, all too soon, someone's won and you have no idea how or what happened in between. You have to super-examine every single panel for pages and pages of fight scenes to understand what's happening, and I don't suggest skipping over the fights. that's 3/4 of the manga! I mean, it's managable, but I would like it if maybe Hoshino could clean them up a bit and not jump around like he's on hot rocks.

Anyway, I started the dubbed show a few weeks ago (I'm not going for the Japanese one on this >_>") but I've decided to lay off that and stick to the manga until I finish my list- or at least Soul Eater ^^. I'll update on D.Gray-man for a while I supposed- it's a pretty long series! But don't worry, I'm not giving anything away.

Tomorrow I'll most likely post a little something on Soul Eater- also, I'll be posting some new sidebars today with lists of best and worst, and what you can look forward to around the corner! ^_^

Yay for off-tasking....?

DON'T JUDGE ME T_T
I'm getting tired of talking as if someone's actually reading this blog.
Anyways.
Don't judge me that I am supposed to be doing so many other things right now- sleeping, finishing my journal, finishing Soul Eater. It's so hard to write out my whole day when I JUST lived it, I'm exhausted, and my wittle hand huwts :(
High school hath gotten no better, sadly. It's not BAD or anything, I have great teachers and have, so far, encountered no major douchebags (Jordan's in my Algebra 1 class though). But my locker hates me and without my friends around to support me I'm terrified of talking to anyone! It's this whole terrible cycle- they give the the confidence to make new friends. If I were with them moments before I headed off, fine. If they had been there for the first day, fine. But they haven't been anywhere in my general vicinity since whenever, and I feel a bit lost without them. The good news is, this Friday (tomorrow) is the first football game, which I'll be attending with at least ONE of my friends. Which is cool.

I never knew Disney had so many animal movies. Really. I should've noticed but I haven't. Is that terrible of me?

La Vie Boheme!

Is love (B

Why hello there, mother Earth. Welcome to my blog post in which I talk about absolutely nothing. Except for the fact that, sadly, this is the second to last day of my summer vacation. My final vacation before I become an official high school student. Again, today, I just did not feel like handwriting it all out in my journal. Of course I will, but I felt the need to type. Maybe one day I could put one of these urges to use my keyboard to be PRODUCTIVE, and WRITE SOMETHING Bl *Knows she probably won't.* Seriously, I have no idea why I don't.
I haven't been working on my writing seriously for quite a while, which, frankly, scares me. I KNOW I'm not straying off permanently, I can't! But I'm kind of losing my touch, and before I know it it'll have been too long to pick up my previous stories. Then I'll either have to rewrite, which I hate doing, or some up with whole new ideas, which is actually one of the most difficult parts of the whole process for me. That and filling.

I'm thinking this year, less fanfiction and more books, though it's difficult for me, especially when I've hit a road block in my own stories and yet have some great ideas for short fics. but that's the thing- they're SHORTS. Shouldn't I be focusing my attention on what I intend to be novels??

I think everyone else has lost faith in me as well, which is one of the things that scares me. People don't notice that I'm a writer anymore, which is just one thing that should worry me, if only because that means I'm not writing as much in school anymore. And once school starts, I'll have LESS time! And now my own family no longer asks to see my work or how it's going or anything. I mean, Ron and Mary Ellen do, but they don't count because they are the writers and artists and musicians of the family- of course they'll be interested, I'm the only other part of the family that has interest in such things (Jacqueline IS a fantastic artist, but she refuses to share it, so they don't exactly take note). Plus they don't live anywhere near us and we see them less than any family in PA, so they haven't lost interest because they don't see us enough to realize I'm FAILING.

Am I really going downhill?????

But enough of that, really. Tomorrow is the last day of summer. I suppose I'll be doing something with Andrea and them, but nothing has really been planned so it probably won't be anything epic. A possible bonfire, but not likely, as we don't even have a location yet. I hate planning things last minute, but I also hate planning things in advance. So just in general, really XD Otherwise, my backpack is all packed up and I'm prepared for the new year!
Bring it on, high school!
Go away, writers' block!
Shut your face, Jordan Osman!

The Metaphorical Closet:

My question to the world is this: Why can't we just let gay people BE? We're all standing outside the Closet door with our pitchforks and torches, waiting to prosecute for.... um..... well.... making biased people uncomfortable.
Well guess what guys. If you don't like it, then DON'T WATCH. It's not like gay people are jumping out of the closet waving knives around- they want to stroll out, hit the street, and find a nice homosexual to have dinner with. What they do after dinner is their own business; nobody need see nor CARE what they want to do with their own love lives. The only ones who have a say in ANYBODY'S personal life is themselves and their mothers- and even Mommy's power is limited, especially in the sexuality area.
They are not hurting us. They are only PEOPLE!
If you don't want to see them, either leave or close your eyes.
There is no need for names or prosecution or prejudice of any kind.
They are just people
Who happen to like a different thing than most.
I like black. A lot of people like blue.
I like the opposite sex- some people like the same sex.

If you don't like homosexuals, here's a question for ya:

THEN WHY DO YOU CARE SO FREAKING MUCH?

Leave the gays alone!

HD Free For Life

I kinda just put that title in cos it was the first thing I heard from the TV..... ANYWEHS. *Ahem*. I am now back home, watching a very strange pimp movie and feeling guilty about the fact that Jacqueline is helping me finish off my LA project. It's nothing big, but still. It's supposed to be all mine, even the artwork. I just can't DO artsy stuff, you know? Luckily it's essentially finished with, so she isn't even really doing it for me. She's just helping out with the background and stuffles cos it needs more color I guess.

We arrived home generally late last night (or early this morning if we're getting technical about it) but it wasn't too bad. I said hey to my doggie and my daddy and went STRAIGHT to sleep- we just wrote a lot and watched a movie on the way home, but somehow it was truly exhausting. We also replayed the video I took of Chris Patton singing the intro to La Vie Boheme from Rent OVER 9,000!!!!!!!!!!!!! times (Sorry, I'm still in con mode). This morning mom woke me up early- I didn't even remember why I was so happy to see her at first! I was all groggy until I heard the word "bookstore". I went to Barnes & Noble today, and I got four books for myself (one for Mom's b-day in two days) which I'll review if I remember to when I finish each of them. The first one I'm reading is called Ender's Game, by Orson Scott Card. It seems pretty cool so far, if not strange. I mean, it's an ALIEN book, you know? Normally I'm not into this stuff but I read a book in which there was a bookworm RAVING about it, and soon after I heard about it somewhere online and I just had to read it. It was actually on a school's required reading list apparently. Shame it wasn't ours, because it sounds entertaining.

But this movie, strange and stupid as it was at first, is actually GOOD. It was all gross and cliche, lots of cutsie "I Love You" moments and the daughter rebelling against her protective policeman father because he doesn't like her boyfriend. But the BF gets all abusive and obsessive, and soon she finds out that he's some sort of sex addict/rapist-pimp. So that little love nest has completely fallen out of the tree. But he's still all obsessed. So he and the dad are going at it and they're abusing her and her best friend and being all stalkerish and finally they end up cutting the girl's dog's head off and invading the house. The head completely freaked me out, though I could see it coming for miles when it started lagging on its way through the door all creepy-like. And the pimps tie up the parents and go after the girl, her brother, her friend who was there as well, and her mom. And that's where I am- but we're back from commercial break. the kid's calling the cops.

Well there we go. There is an epic fight and daddy wins. That was an extremely weird movie. And very awkward. Slightly bad. But not totally.

For now, I'm going to either read or walk around being bored. most likely the latter, because I've been back for about ten hours and already Mom is yelling at me for being lazy.

Another fantastic failure

http://www.formspring.me/JennRamolt

I don't get the purpose of this site, as nobody who is on it really gives a shit about my life, but OKAY! LOL(B
In other less-pathetic sounding news I'm now sitting in a hotel room in Michigan, reflecting upon the awesomeness that has been my day. I've been at another anime convention for the past two days, meeting some super-great people and just having a generally fun time with all of them! I got a couple new buddies on Facebook, but there is one girl who i really want to contact whose name is SO generic that I cannot even FIND HER on Facebook! It's just really a shame that I didn't get her DA account. I ended up friending 6 different girls who had remotely silimar faces, plus a few with no pictures, to see which ones would accept me! God I feel like a creeper....

Anyway, at this new con I actually had the chance to meet the Late Great (LOLRentpun) CHRIS PATTON! gawd is he amazing. Andrea was ready to piss herself. It's not even funny. I mean, I was excited, and I knew she had to be MORE so, but you would think she were about to shake Jesus's hand with how happy she was. It was actually... a little irritating. Which i feel bad for thinking because I know if Sarah Dessen read my writing and critiqued me, I would never shut up about it, and Andy would put up with it. So I'm not saying anything. But do I even really have the right to complain? I'm already a shit friend to her. I don't even know why she still keeps me around, honestly XD I'm such a douchebag it's not even funny.

ANYWAY. We also met Vic Migongna, which was AWESOME. he's such a sweetie- he doesn't just take pictures with fans, he gets up and glomps every one of them. And not just putting his arm around you. He seriously hugs you. Like, TIGHT! 8D I would call him a pedo, but.... he's Vic Mignogna. So......................... no. XP

I've been attempting to work on some of my more serious writing lately- it's been a long time, I've been obsessed with my fanfictions for too long. i'm afraid I'm losing my stories! *HORRORHORRORHORRORHORROR* But it's not working very well, as I have a lot of work to do. As soon as i'm home I have to FINALLY put the very finishing touches on my HFLA projecrs. I really like how they've turned out- which is rare. Usually there's ONE out of three that I'm not so pleased with, but not this time. Well, there's still time to screw things up (:

Facebook is driving me CRAZY, and though I love it I'm not as addicted to it as before. I read and comment and generally keep in contact, especially with the people that I now know only through internet (8D CON BUDDY JUST ACCEPTED MY FRIEND REQUEST! YAYZ!).

So the con is exciting, and so is summer work (HAHA GOOD JOKE B) and so is the movie Inception. God, that storyline, the script, the effects the idea the characters they were all GENIUS in an extremely confusing horrifying breathtaking way! It's probably one of the top 3 or 2 BEST MOVIES I HAVE EVER SEEN. I could watch it I don't know how many times and still not get over it- still be reeling at the end. I'll watch it for the q6328591651th time on my fortieth birthday and be like "WHOA." Because it is THAT awesome. i can't even DESCRIBE IT. Just..... WATCH IT. RAAAAUUUUUUUGH.

In other news.

*Ahem*

I'm getting those stupid feelings again. Like, I want to do something important. Something big. Something more. And I can't figure out exactly what it is that I want to do... but this is kind of helping. Maybe I should vlog or something. I dunno. What do you think?

Yeah I know. Bad idea. I'm just... too AWKWARD for that. But, you know. WTF am I supposed to be doing? And WTF is taking Andrea so long in the shower????

*Sigh*

ONCE AGAIN, I fail to write daily! *Facedesk* I guess I'll just have to go by this when I remember T_T

So I saw The Last Airbender today- not named Avatar, smart, because of the whole Avatar-the-Navi thing. It was a decent movie, proper title notwithstanding. I mean, it wasn't FANTASTIC, and some parts were just..... bad.... but it was good plot (Same as the show) good characters, acting, effects. The fight scenes were incredible, and the only bad things were tiny details that aren't even worth picking over. It sounds like it should have been as fantastic as Robin Hood, but somehow it was only mediocre. Even with all its good qualities, I will only describe it as that. Mediocre. i can't do much else with it; it was good. But not anything special.

After, went to get Dairy Queen and stayed at Andrea's cosplaying until ten o'clock XD Coolest day ever! Yet now that I'm home, I am, once again, stuck with that icky boredom feeling of "what do I do now?".... because the day's gone, the fun's over, and I'm stuck at home with Leah having a sleepover that she wasn't supposed to be allowed to have -_- yay for parenting.

I can finish summer reading tonight I suppose. *Sigh*. then I gotta start up on the work. I think I've forgotten how to hold a pen.

Gay snakes

Okay. So I guess I lied when I said I would be writing every day. Yeah. Big fat crapper-lie. But is it really my fault that nothing ever really happens to me!!??! I mean, the past 24-hours have been preeeetty epic, but that's about all so far this summer. I've been bowling, went to Amazone, had Sam over, and then yesterday I went to the fair with Kelsey, stayed over her house, and then came home to shower (Cats) and went straight to Andrea's where I played Left 4 Dead 2 for two hours or so XD it was awesome! But yeah, nothing else is really going on. Sam is awesome, family is still themselves, which is bleh, and I'm working on peoples' birthday presents. Specifically, Sam's and Emily's. But Emily's pool party was purely COOL. I forgot to mention that part :) According to Allison, who was there, if you say the word BOMB 3 times or more on the phone the cops start monitoring your call. I don't know if it's true or not, but if it is that's pretty dang cool XD and/or funny. And smart. But mostly funny I suppose :) So yeah I'll try and post daily, even if it's just a lil snippet or drabble and, you know, just try to vent. I might do it in different forms- letters to people, video, text, journal/blong, story.... it'll be more interesting than the whole Dear Diary setup, doncha think? Future me who is reading this? XD

So I have a pen pal, just like I've always wanted to. And I actually KNOW her, which is awesome because we have more to talk about, but she doesn't live close, which is cool because this way we're actually corresponding in a real way than just placing the letters in each others' mailboxes to help save stamps. It's Sarah Yeo- old friend, moved to Findlaya while ago, I miss her a TON. We used to be, pretty basically, sisters. I mean, in the last year or two she started fading away from me, but we still had fun at dance and hung out every once in a while. Not like we used to, but it was good. And now we're getting even better through the letters, and I'm thinking I'm going to email her after this blog just because I don't think my hands'll be able to stop and also just because I've always wanted to write emails back and forth like letters on a laptop. You know, like that terrible-in-a-good-way movie, You've Got Mail??

Otherwise, I'll also be emailing our roleplay notebooks back and forth between emily and I, and probably starting a new email roleplay with Andrea if she'll be into it.

I've been addicted to facebook and these new forums I've joined, called Class of the Titans. They are some GREAT people, and I get some laughs from rereading our threads XD My Original Characters (OCs) are Maiya and Solomon, and, surprisingly, Solomon is one of the most popular threads. Which I am proud of. Though that is PROBABLY due to Melissa, a girl on the threads who A) Is online a LOT and B)has an OC who is coupled in a pairing with Solomon :) Maiya, however, is not taking off, which I'm curious about. There ARE other OCs who have fallen flat, so I guess I shouldn't be, but still.... I like her :(
http://www.activeboard.com/forum.spark?aBID=134940&p=1

In other news.................................................
Fuck.

45 I likes I loves

1. I like the way he grins
2. I like how he laughs
3. I like how he shakes his whole head to get his hair into place
4. and how he sneaks peeks at me in the theater to see if I like the film.
5. I like his voice
6. and his eyes and they way they look when he laughs.
7. I love how he is so shy and so quiet
8. I love they way he holds doors open for girls
9. and how easily embarassed he is.
10. I like his sense of humor
11. and the fact that he doesn't understand sarcasm.
12. I like his patience
13. and his truthfulness
14. and how much he is willing to put up with.
15. I love his taste in music
16. and movies
17. and how we can argue about anything
18. and everything
19. and nothing
20. and each other.
21. I love how we don't watch the movie when we watch movies
22. and I love how when he's tired and puts his head down he peeks up at me through his arms.
23. I love the look in his eyes when he does that
24. and the way he smiles when I say something stupid and/or embarassing.
25. I like the feeling of his arm across my shoulder
26. and around my waist
27. and I love the feeling of his arms around me.
28. I like how he knows when he is annoying me and knows how ot turn it into a laugh
29. and the way he trips over his own words.
30. I love how he can't stand the Awkward Question Game
31. And I love how he loves our games of Truth.
32. I love how he puts up with me hitting him (in good nature)
33. and how terrible he is at mocking me
34. and I love how he insists he's not smart when I KNOW he knows he is
35. and how many messages we send on Facebook applications about nothing.
36. I like how times passes with him
37. and how he insists that he is superior
38. even though every time he admits I am right
39. and the next day will start again.
40. I like the way he is so good at sports and never lets on
41. and the way he ignores the fact that I can't shoot a basketball to save the world.
42. I like the way he puts up with mushyness, just for me
43. and the way he gets so freaked about ghosts
44. and isn't afraid of cuddling.
45. I love the way he makes me love myself.

Letter to Emily:

I hate drama. i hate banging it out and complaining and fighting. I just wanna hang out and laugh it up with my friends. And I know everyone says that but I REALLY mean it! Anyway, the only drama that's ever really entered my life is always centered around or otherwise created by my best friend, Emily. People ask WHY I'm friends with her, and the answer, i don't rightly know. but I love her like my own sister, sometimes MORE than the younger one, even if she drives me crazy. So, instead of biting her head off and shooting her in the face on Monday at school in compensation for all the stress and anxiety problems she's caused me in the past two years, I'm going to write a letter. One she will never read, if I'm lucky enough, but at least I can get some feelings out.
Dear Emily:
Okay. I don't know how exactly to start this at all, but I'm hoping once I get up my steam I can finally just get on and go and keep going until it's all out and done. Emily, I'm sorry that you feel I owe you an apology. I'm sorry that you get pissed at every little thing and I have to fix it all unless I want to hear about it for weeks. I know I don't have to- at first I WANTED to, but now, I'm EXPECTED too. Big different from wanting to, don't you think? now it's a sort of duty I have to perform daily, fixing whatever is up with your screwy emotions and your overly-dramatic lifestyle, and quite frankly it's a tiring job. Exhausting, actually. And do you know what that means? I'm tired of fixing you. I'm tired of having to console you over every little thing that happens, and I'm tired of you not caring when something bad happens in MY life. or, at least, you ACT like you don't care. maybe you don't know what to do about it, maybe you don't understand my problem, or maybe I'm insane, but you realize I'm human too and I think I deserve a little consolation every once in a while. because even I can be SAD, believe it or not. Even I can be ANGRY. I KNOW you've seen me get pissed, I don't know why you're so surprised every time I do. I'm sorry, Emily, that you feel overshadowed by everyone in your life because your dad plays music, your sister's pretty, and I write a lot, even though you can sing like an angel/hellchild. I'm sorry that you feel the need to come to me whenever you find out the boy you've been in love with for less than 48 hours has a girlfriend. i'm sorry that your recent boyfriend hasn't texted you in four hours and that you blame yourself, because of COURSE that's my fault. i'm sorry you don't want to HEAR about my boyfriend, even though I listen to you talk about yours allllll daaaayyyy loooonnnng, JUST because you broke up with him. IN SECOND GRADE. I'm sorry that your friend Alexis is too dramatic and I'm sorry that you feel left out when you leave to go sit on my porch instead of hang with us. I'm sorry that I'm writing this so crazy and that maybe I'm hurting your ever-so-sensetive feelings, but forgive me, Emily, for this letter, because I have not pulled a fight with you for the entire two years we've known each other. i'm sorry you feel so horrible about your family, one mom and one dad who love you very much, and one gorgeous sister who is also your best friend, when my family drives me crazy every day yelling and screaming at me for reasons I don't understand. I'm also sorry that you complain that i never confide in you when you never give me a CHANCE to. i'm sorry you're so image-obsessed that you complain about every little detail when I repeat to you over and over that it doesn't matter while I stand before you, disheveled but still comfortable. I'm sorry you're SO POOR that you get concert tickets every couple weeks and you're jealous of my money when I get hand me downs AND hand me ups from both ends, yet never have money to buy you a decent birthday present. i'm SORRY your dad is out of a job and you hate it, even though you've never even ASKED about the merger that may send my family and I to Chicago after I FINALLY made some friends and got a life for myself. i'm sorry everything you own is so crappy and disappointing when my seven year old MP3 player is scratched and skips and missing headphones and a battery back and my phone is falling apart and is so old they don't sell new batteries anymore, which it desperately needs, while you have two iPods and a brand new cell phone along with a TV and game system set up in your room. I am sorry you feel I have to apologize to you. Because I feel that I owe you nothing. Maybe it's selfish of me, because I'm only seeing one side of this story. I do realize that you have your side to tell as well, but I've heard it all, Em, and yet you have heard nothing of mine. You don't know about the special game Sam and I play, because you never asked and you shut your ears every time i try to tell you. You don't know about my dad because whenever I say something you're absorbed in your depressing, heartbroken poetry. You don't know I write my OWN poetry because you never read it, only force me to read yours, which I am HAPPY to do, only because you think I'm a good writer and somehow dislike this, even though it is pretty much my only talent except for applying makeup, which i hate wearing, and typing really fast. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry that you know nothing of me, really, though you THINK you know my every thought. Well, Emily, read these thoughts of mine. And tell me. If.
I.
Should.
Be.
Sorry.
but don't worry. It won't last. because I love you, and you know I love you, and you've put up with me, so you must love me. because we have similar taste in music and movies and shows and never run out of anything to talk about and we always have fun together even if we're bored and we never fight though we may bicker. you're my soul sister, Emily, and I forgive you nothing, because you don't need to be forgiven. I just think I don't need to be forgiven for anything, either. I hope I haven't, and I hope I'm a sister to you, too, because if not, it might break my heart.
Monday we'll laugh and talk and sing together, talk about the Phantom of the Opera and what's going on in your relationship. and I'll smile, and you have to know it'll be genuine. Because this letter now is making me cry for the first time in a year- 365 days of dry eyes, maybe more. This was my release- let it be yours.
Loving you like a forever-soul-sister,
Jennifer

VloggettyNO

(B I like that post title.
So today had been kinda BLERGH except for the fact that it's after-testing-before-final-project-grade-of-the-year-time OR, as I like to so expertly call it, ATBFPGOTYT. Which I do not believe has an acronym. PHAILbut anyways....
I feel like I should be falling apart right now, but I'm relatively calm. I just don't know anymore, really. I felt like things were getting better, I felt like someone threw a rope down for me to get out of the rut. You know? But I think I slipped on the way up and I can't find the rope anymore, because I'm back at aquare one and I don't know what the heck I'm doing. I know it sounds like emo-ism and I'm trying to make it sound better, but there's really no other way to say it. I'm BORED. And I have these secrets weighing me down, secrets I can't even post HERE, on a blog that no one even reads. The family is insane, as always, so I can't count on them for help, even my usually half-okay older sister. And that's just where it started when I fell back into the rut. My writing's gone. AGAIN. And somehow all my plans just fell apart and yet I keep making these empty promises to more and more people.
Wow this is getting depressing.
Well, guess what, it gets worse.
You know, with the economy thing going on, money is tough and businesses are struggling, which is why a lot of people think it's awesome that United will be merging with Continental Airlines to create the BIGGEST airline in the US- maybe the WORLD. Cool, right? As long as the gov'nt approves it, that is. But no. For my family and I, it ain't so hot. Because my dad just happens to be a mechanic working for Continental, and though he has pretty much close to the MOST seniority and DEFINITELY the most skill and work ethic out of these employees, when it comes down to the long run, that stuff doesn't count. We could be moved to another city, or he could get laid off. In which case we'd go broke, because my mom's job doesn't pay nearly enough for the five of us. Unless we sell Leah....
KIDDING.
Sort of.
B)
But anyways. Who knows? Maybe nothing will happen at all. For now, my mom says we won't know anything for practically a year. So why can't I relax? I dunno. Maybe I'm justed stressed in general because my grades are dropping.... BAD. That's something ELSE digging me into a ditch. Math and gym. WHO GETS A C IN GYM? HONESTLY. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS SHOW UP.
*Sigh*
Like I said.... I just don't know anymore.
Besides that, happy things will be happening, which I'm hoping will distract me. My friends and I (who may or may not be separated soon. The best friends I've ever had, whom I only met LAST YEAR.........................................) have the roleplay notebooks for our original characters, which is great and tons of fun, but not exactly distracting. They are passed around just too quickly. And then we have the cedar point trip, which'll be fun BUT stressful because the girls I'm with don't seem to like me too much... they get bipolar with our friendship =\ And after that is THE most positive part of my future so far. The same friends (;_; dontthinkaboutitdontthinkaboutitdontthinkaboutit) and I have planned out this ENTIRE weekend right after the cedar point trip where we head out to this convention, stay at one's place overnight, head right back. We're going to ALL the panels and special events and meeting ALL the people we've obsessed over since seventh grade =) It'll be AWESOME! Now THAT'S something that can distract you from bad news, innnit? Especially when I need to get busy with mah cosplay ;D
Not hints. Pictures after the convention though. PROMISE!!! Hey. Maybe I'll even video a bit. Post it for ya when I get back.
For now, crossing my fingers that all goes well. Are you?

BLARHGHSAJDHASDHSJAKDAS STOP IT B|

She's BAAAA-AAAAAAACK.
Kinda sorta not really =) HI AGAIN! HOLY CRAP IT'S BEEN FOREVAH. I should video-post. I should vlog. I really should. BUT I DON'T WANNA. SO HA.
And no, I'm not on crack. I've just changed. And been hanging around with different people. And learned how to live an actual life. Like, where you go places and do things and meet people and have FUN? Yeah, THAT kinda life. *Gasp*! WHO KNEW I COULD DO SUCH A THING?!?!?
*Cough*ahem* .............. yeah.
I titled this post... erm.... I can't retype that. I'm too lasy to paste. I titled it what I titled it because for some strage reason I keep getting spam e-mail asking me if I want a penis enlargement. Actually, screatch that, they want to sell me Pen1s En1arg3m3nts. Over and over and over. NO, OKAY!?!?!?!! NO, I DO NOT WANT TO ENLARGE MY NONEXISTENT MAN-GENITALS. LEAVE ME ALONE. DEAR BABY JEEBUS.
In other news, I have been doing many things. I joined the world in it's phenomenon of social networking and got myself a Facebook. It's quite entertaining. Part of the reason I'm, actually posting this at... hm.... what time.... 12:31 AM. And. Yeah. I'll probably be up much later, watching Chuggaaconroy's Pokemon guide videos, SSxEPhil's PDA and his new show, NSFW, and a whole buncha ShaneDawnsonTV, which was actually introduced to me this afternoon by Demyx. That kid is random. Scary-random and sometimes gross. But I freaking love him. He's hilarious. Most of the time (B wow that face looks retarded. KIND OF LIKE MINE. But whatever. If my Facebook isn't linked in the sidebar, AS IF ANYONE'S READIN THIS TO LOOK, it will be when I'm through with it. *Cocks gun*
*Ahem*
Andrea's rubbed off on me.
SO JENN, WHAT ELSE HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?
Holy crap I typed my name. Welcome, internet stalkers. Heheh. I'm sleepy.
Well..... what newses can I tell you that won't bore you to tears? I PUBLISHED A BOOKno not really. That would be fun though. And this stupid thing would probably be WAAAAAAY more interesting. But yeah.
Well, I have been watching crap on Youtube and Facebooking, but other than that.... my hiphop class is going good, school is a bit downhill but don't worry I am PICKING UP THE PIECES. I will move on to next year with my friends or so help me I will be stuck in the same grade as Ryan Soldano. *Shudders* I would rather die than have English class with the little creep. Is that mean? Well, I'm already going to hell. What do I care????
In other newses, I have FRIENDS. Isn't it WEIRD? Not only that, but do you remember the SECRET I posted in the last You Wish? If you don't, UNCARE. You don't need to. If I know you, you probably already know that the YOU WISH CAME TRUE. About Him. Yeah. Three months ago. Exactly today. Yeah =))))))))
I have also joined these forums on this old Canadian kids' show called Class of the Titans, not actually up on cable or anything anymore I believe but you can check it out on Youtube, it's adorable, very cheesy, but I love Greek Mythology and on these forums you can create your own original characters and roeplay and such, and it's AMAZINGLY fun! If you like mythology and dirty jokes (Not IN the show, on the forums ;) ) then check it out! For some retarded reason (I have to stop saying retarded..... it's horrible) it won't let me post the link, so I'll type it out for ya. Because I'm frigging thoughtful like that. http://www.activeboard.com/, and you have to find Class of the Titans on your own. Sorry!!! and it's CLASSSSSSS. Not CLASH. CLASS. Kay? Mkay.
On a weekend in the not-so-distant future my entire grade will be going to CEDAR POINT for a fun class trip! But, unfortunately, the school board said, "HOLD ON. We're spending money on these kids' FUN?!?! FUCK NO. No way. They need to do WORK."
So we're doing packets on physics. In an amusement park. That'll be fun. well, actually, I'm hoping we can MAKE it fun. We'll see.
The two days after that I will be spending with my two bestestestestestestRAPE friends ever- the ENTIRE weekend with them at COLOSSALCON AAAAHHHHHHGHGHGHGHGH *cheers*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stalking Vic Mignogna =3 It'll be a blast.
Other than that, lemme hit you with some quickies here:
A) I've been obsessed with Sarah Dessen's books as of late, great stories, READ THEM OR I WILL CONSUME YOUR FIRSTBORN CHILD. no not reall. I'm not a cannibal. That'd be SILLY.
B) I got a new camera and I've been obsessively taping and videoing random shiz. I plan to post our trip to NYC if possible.
C) I FUDGING LOVE NEW YORK I'M GOING TO LIVE AND DIE THERE. The people the places the sights the smells sure it's expensive as hell but hey, what writer/movie director/lawyer doesn't make serious cash? Unless they suck? Which I'll make sure I wont. Because New York City is MY place. And I'm GOING.
D) I miss Sarah ;_; We don't ever text or e-mail. *Sniffle*
E) RAPTOR JESUS. LOOK IT UP. RIGHT NOW. BUT NOT ON BING. BING'S STUPID.
F) Life is good. Life is very good. Still boring as all hell sometimes, but it's getting better and better every day. I'm counting on that =)

HAIR

Yeah, not actually posting, this is for a certain purpose. I think I'm pretty much finished blogging at this point. But it was fun times! ^_^............................... I think?