La Vie Boheme!

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Why hello there, mother Earth. Welcome to my blog post in which I talk about absolutely nothing. Except for the fact that, sadly, this is the second to last day of my summer vacation. My final vacation before I become an official high school student. Again, today, I just did not feel like handwriting it all out in my journal. Of course I will, but I felt the need to type. Maybe one day I could put one of these urges to use my keyboard to be PRODUCTIVE, and WRITE SOMETHING Bl *Knows she probably won't.* Seriously, I have no idea why I don't.
I haven't been working on my writing seriously for quite a while, which, frankly, scares me. I KNOW I'm not straying off permanently, I can't! But I'm kind of losing my touch, and before I know it it'll have been too long to pick up my previous stories. Then I'll either have to rewrite, which I hate doing, or some up with whole new ideas, which is actually one of the most difficult parts of the whole process for me. That and filling.

I'm thinking this year, less fanfiction and more books, though it's difficult for me, especially when I've hit a road block in my own stories and yet have some great ideas for short fics. but that's the thing- they're SHORTS. Shouldn't I be focusing my attention on what I intend to be novels??

I think everyone else has lost faith in me as well, which is one of the things that scares me. People don't notice that I'm a writer anymore, which is just one thing that should worry me, if only because that means I'm not writing as much in school anymore. And once school starts, I'll have LESS time! And now my own family no longer asks to see my work or how it's going or anything. I mean, Ron and Mary Ellen do, but they don't count because they are the writers and artists and musicians of the family- of course they'll be interested, I'm the only other part of the family that has interest in such things (Jacqueline IS a fantastic artist, but she refuses to share it, so they don't exactly take note). Plus they don't live anywhere near us and we see them less than any family in PA, so they haven't lost interest because they don't see us enough to realize I'm FAILING.

Am I really going downhill?????

But enough of that, really. Tomorrow is the last day of summer. I suppose I'll be doing something with Andrea and them, but nothing has really been planned so it probably won't be anything epic. A possible bonfire, but not likely, as we don't even have a location yet. I hate planning things last minute, but I also hate planning things in advance. So just in general, really XD Otherwise, my backpack is all packed up and I'm prepared for the new year!
Bring it on, high school!
Go away, writers' block!
Shut your face, Jordan Osman!